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[Nov. 12th, 2009|10:49 pm] |
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Everything is so fucked up. Especially myself. I hate hate myself. Why am I so stupid. Why can't I be smarter. Why am I SO FUCKING STUPID. I feel like just packing up and not coming back to this god damn place ever.
NO MA I AM NOT MY BROTHER. STOP FUCKING TRYING TO TELL ME TO GET INTO FUCKING STANFORD. |
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[Apr. 6th, 2009|12:49 pm] |
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Today's japanese class was a shocker to me.. Firstly our teacher emo exploded on us when she realized alot of us didn't do the homework.. Then it must be the FIRST time I missed *any* homework.. Btw I actually did it but I forgot to turn it in.. therefore I feel very VERY wronged right now.
And just in class we had to do discussions about family/women in society.. And I was put in a group with 2 guys.. One of them is this really funny mcp dude and the other is the dude who tried to ask me out on valentine's day. What's worse is that one of the questions was "Will you want to marry in the future? Do you want to have kids?" I was like.. omg. Seriously. I am so bad at lying and making up last minute/excuse/decisions that I said "well.. I wanna marry in the future.." then the funny dude pressed on and asked like "then is he around?? in cmu?? or??" And I was just stumped. Like.. seriously.. This is not helping the crap I'm feeling right now.. both in my brain and in my tummy/intestines.. Then I was like "uh.. NEXT QUESTION!" Dx
I guess I keep complaining that guys aren't nice to me blah blah blah.. But when I eventually find one stupid things happen to me. I feel horrible. |
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| My 10 xmas wish |
[Nov. 14th, 2008|02:26 am] |
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| | Keisuke Kuwata - Ashita Hareru Kana | ] |
I'm going public! For once. Lol. Sounds like some sacred confession. Well ripped this off other people because I thought it was really interesting.. So here goes..
Step One:
• Make a post (public, friendslocked, filtered...whatever you're comfortable with) to your LJ. The post should contain your list of 10 unlimited 8D holiday wishes. The wishes can be anything at all, from simple and fandom-related ("I'd love a Snape/Hermione icon that's just for me") to medium ("I wish for _____ on DVD") to really big ("All I want for Christmas is a new car/computer/house/TV.") The important thing is, make sure these wishes are things you really, truly want.
• If you wish for real life things (not fics or icons), make sure you include some sort of contact info in your post, whether it's your address or just your email address where Santa (or one of his elves) could get in touch with you.
• Also, make sure you post some version of these guidelines in your LJ, or link to this post (it'll be public) so that the holiday joy will spread.
Step Two:
• Surf around your friendslist (or friendsfriends, or just random journals) to see who has posted their list. And now here's the important part:
• If you see a wish you can grant, and it's in your heart to do so, make someone's wish come true. Sometimes someone's trash is another's treasure, and if you have a leather jacket you don't want or a gift certificate you won't use--or even know where you could get someone's dream purebred Basset Hound for free--do it.
• You needn't spend money on these wishes unless you want to. The point isn't to put people out, it's to provide everyone a chance to be someone else's holiday elf--to spread the joy. Gifts can be made anonymously or not--it's your call.
• There are no rules with this project, no guarantees, and no strings attached. Just...wish, and it might come true. Give, and you might receive. And you'll have the joy of knowing you made someone's holiday special.
( My 10 xmas wishes )
As you can see I ran out of ideas... So I will be coming back and editting more! Kinda obvious that I ran out of ideas seeing the crappy wishes im making. (: See it tag it and pass it on! NOW!
IKENAI TAIYOUUU NANANANAAAAA (the song just came on my playlist T_T)...
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[Oct. 22nd, 2008|03:57 pm] |
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1pm, 18220 Class.
Sigh. Now I know why geri paper blogs. 18220 is SO DAMN BORING. So now I'm writing this on a paper and go back later to type it out. :D
And since I'm so bored, my literature side has taken over me.. I wrote a poem!!! Here goes:
Circuits Ciruits you fry my brain
Inductors Conductors, the source of my pain.
MOSFETS turn on with the current at the drain.
What will it take to finally make my game?
- by William Bobosphere
HOW ISIT PEOPLE???? :D :D
Okay that was random.
Talking about randomness, smokie was very random today. We were just doing some interview for class today.. And just when I was asking my partner about something, I heard a voice from above calling me,"See-san" (yeah we call each other by last name in class). Thinking that it was God's reply of my prayer for him to talk to me, I turned around with my beaming smile and he popped a question," What's durian (said in Chinese) in English?" I was like.. "( ' A ' ) eh? Durian?" The he replied, "Oh really? It doesn't have an english name?" And after 2 lines we continued with our own activities.
God, god, god I thank you for answering my prayer for him to talk to me but to ask me what is DURIAN IN ENGLISH??!?! God has an odd sense of humor. ): At least ask me for my number or something.. NOT DURIAN!! BAhhh (T__T)
Okay I'm so not listening in class. I find it funny that people abbreviate homogeneous equation and non homogeneous equation to homo and non homo eqtn. "Hi! I'm gay!" says homo eqtn..
ANOTHER 30 MORE MINS!!
Kohkoh was telling me about bad pickup lines. And in classes like 220... You will start thinking of more...
( Read more... )
Yep I'm bored.
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| Today, I saw a fire |
[Aug. 15th, 2008|05:05 am] |
And I'm not kidding. At 4:30am I was woken up by my mom and she just hurried me to pick up my passport and my I-20, muttering that the house 2 doors down is on fire. At first I thought it was the house directly next to mine, but to my slight relieve it was the one at the corner that's at a relatively safe distance away. What got me to write this was not the awesomeness of the fire or the fear of getting caught between flames, but the queer sense of respect and disgust I feel when I saw the scene.
The fire was blazing hot and the strong winds at night just blew created more havoc than good. Yet, there were firefighters who braced themselves and fought the fire. Somehow witnessing a real fire is way different than watching it over a screen or hearing it from someone. Just viewing the scorching flames and feeling the heat from the burning house was enough to strike fear in my heart. I would never, ever want to be in such a situation. Yet, I doubt that was anything rare in the career of those who put their lives on the line. Sure, some of them work for work. but their work is nothing less than admirable.
The old construction made out of wood was slowly disappearing into an orange cloud. I stood at my porch and silently prayed for the old man staying in the house. Scattered people gathered around a safe distance away from the house and just dazed out into the fire. All that they were concerned about was whether their properties were damaged from the fire. I don't know what to feel worse about: a group of people risking their lives to protect whats not theirs, or a group of people who only protects what theirs. How disgusting.
What the firefighters saved was not the just house, the next house, the next next house, the entire neighbour, and myself... and my trust that their will be a reaching hand if I were to be caught in maze of torching materials. My brother, however, just went back to sleep knowing that the fire has died down. Everyone else who gathered slowly drifted back to their homes as the realize that the fire was no longer a threat to their earthly possessions.
I just stood there and looked at the retracting water line. Although I was a distance away, I clapped my hands as loud as I could. A single applause for those who saved us all. I may have looked like a idiot, standing there getting all worked up and applaud-y about, but, aren't these little idiotic gestures the things that encourage people to keep doing what they do?
バカみたい私は、自分で助けてくれた人々を応援した。なんか、寂しくて、無用だったけど、ありがとう～～と言いたいから一人で立って、拍手した。たぶん、あのうるさい所まで聞けないけど、本当に感謝しているから、拍手した。
ありがとうございました！！！みんな無事ように。 <3 |
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